December 13, 2009

Rushing to Dad's bedside

His wife called a few hours ago. We may not get there in time. She asked if I wanted them to try to keep him alive until then, but I told her I'd rather we do what is best for him. We saw him in October, he was healthier then and happy. It was a good visit, that's the way I want to remember him.

We're rushing to the airport now. I'm holding up fine, except when my thoughts drift to "If we have babies, he won't get to meet them when they're born." And then the tears come, so I must stop thinking that.

We don't have internet access where he lives, so it may be several days before I have a chance to update again.

7 comments:

DAVs said...

Oh Rebecca. I am so, so sorry. I have an inkling of your pain in that my kids (if we have any) will never know my Dad the way he really is/was. But I am just so sorry you are having to say goodbye. I am glad you got to see him in October. Big hugs, and wishing you strength.

MrsSpock said...

Oh no- so very sorry. Saying good bye is hard. Hugs to you!

Nic said...

Sorry to hear about your Dad. I'm glad you have a good visit to hold onto. My dad died from lung cancer about fifteen years ago; it still makes me so sad that he never got to meet my DH or my kids. I like to think that he watches over all of us though.

Sue said...

I'm so sorry about your dad. I, too, am glad you had a good visit with him in October to remember. Hugs.

Jo said...

Sending hugs your way.

Jo

Grad3 said...

There are no real words of comfort at a time like this so I am just going to send you big hugs.

~Big Hugs~

kayjay said...

I'm so sorry and I hope you made it there in time. Sending hugs your way.