November 09, 2010

I Tested

And any sane, normal, rational person (i.e. R) will tell you that it is one very single, lonely line on a very solidly stark white background.

I, on the other hand, still ridiculously continue to cling to hope.

Because I swear there just may be something there. If there is, it's the faintest line in the history of faint HPT lines, even fainter than the time we were scratching our heads trying to determine if it was a line for pg #2, and the beta that morning turned out to be a 5. (I used a FRED then, and it was a FRED again this morning.)

But I swear I can see something if I turn it at just the right angle. I know a stark white background when I see one, the kind where you can't even tell where the line is supposed to be. And this time, I think I can see where the line is supposed to be.

But mostly I just smell pee. And clearly I'm not confident enough that I'm really seeing something to call RE's office and ask for a blood test to be ordered.

So instead, I'm rationalizing that if I ovulated late - which is entirely possible for me - maybe ovulation didn't occur until Halloween weekend, in which case I'm only 8 or 9 dpo. So maybe I just tested too early.

In other words, we're in for another round of this in a few days, unless CD1 shows up before then.

Meanwhile, the hourly boob checks (they're still sore - yea!) will have to be temporarily suspended when I go in to work this morning. There's a security camera right above my cube, and "Woman feels herself up at work while she thinks no one is watching" is not a video I want showing up someday on America's Funniest Home Videos...


Silver said...

I know that line! It's the line that is where the line would be if there was a line - totally different to no line. I've found that those kind of lines sometimes get more obvious once the HPT has dried. Wish I could remember which blogger it was that referred to her line being visible "only under the light of a thousand suns" . . .I've had them too.

Libby said...

Wouldn't a second line be marvelous! I think it's worth giving the security camera people a little something extra to look at ;)

And thanks for your progesterone comment. I have a call into my RE about getting my levels done despite her not thinking it is necessary.

Nico said...

I think the light of a thousand suns is Julie at a little pregnant :)

I hope that you get some GOOD clarity in the next couple of days!!!

MrsSpock said...

A line is a line right? Hopefully it will keep growing!

lastchanceivf said...

How did I miss this????
I hope the line is getting darker!!!