May 17, 2010

Officially in Beta Hell

After Saturday's freakout, I managed to find a very Zen place yesterday. Today, I was even hopeful and somewhat optimistic, which is rather impressive for me.

But today's number was only 43 - it didn't double this time, it only increased by 67%. Which I know is technically still within the "normal" range for rate of increase, but I think it's worrisome that I went from a 133% increase all the way down to 67%.

I'm supposed to get another beta on Wednesday, and progesterone retested in about a week (assuming I make it that far).

I'm not feeling good about this. (Shocking, I know.) Particularly since I found this study that says "Patients with slow rising beta-hCG levels should not be given an optimistic prognosis even if viability is demonstrated at eight weeks."

So apparently, we could go along for another couple of months and still not have a good outcome. But then again, I already knew that, because it's happened before. It's just that if this is not going to end well, I'd at least rather it end now instead of two months from now...

7 comments:

lastchanceivf said...

I'm sorry. I wish things were turning out differently. I agree--I hate that things have to be drawn out, it's seems so cruel and unfair.

kayjay said...

Why can nothing be simple? I'm sorry this is not clearer so you can either break out the Kleenex or break out the non-alcoholic champagne. Hugs.

MrsSpock said...

Oh crap, what a roller coaster ride...

Sue said...

I hate this. On one hand, this could turn out great and will be a great start for that pregnancy book. On the other, it could just be a long, drawn-out BFN. Ugh. I am praying for you. I hope this is just a scare that turns into a great story.

Nic said...

This just sucks. The universe is really toying with you and it's just so fucking unfair. Hugs to you and DH, that and my heartfelt hope and prayers. xox.

Silver said...

I wish this was more straightforward for you. Not.fair!

Patience said...

Thinking of you. Beta hell is one of the absolute worst places to be.